Student teaching begins for me next Tuesday It's real now - I've met my mentor teachers, seen the students I will be teaching, got my staff ID/parking pass/schedule, and have a teaching plan for my first week all set.
Now for freaking out Susan....
In four days everything changes.
Not an 10.0 on the Richter Scale (Southern California Earthquake talk) but maybe a 7.0 - enough to shake things up quite a bit but not cause serious permanent damage, but it will cause changes. Big changes.
Believe me when I say that I do not think that for one minute what I am going through right now is that big of a deal in the big scheme of things, but it is real to me and because this is my own personal journal and wish to help others, I've decided to share with you what I'm feeling.
I'll be going to work every week day and I will have a schedule like a vast majority of the people around me.
I have to make my own lunch in the morning! I'll be interacting with other adults on a daily basis in a work environment and not just in a store!
Exciting, scary, nervous, anxious and sad. Those are the feelings I harbor right now.
I want this so bad and need it with every cell in my body.
I want to teach.
Exciting to be finally embarking on this new chapter of my life. This is going to change me. My world is going to open up to something new, something that I think will change the course of my life.
Scary because I'm finally embarking on this new chapter of my life. Will I be good enough?
Nervous about classroom management - Thinking fast on my feet when anyone comes at me with a snarky comment is not a attribute I have. Will have to learn smart, respectful and correct responses fast.
Anxious to begin - wish it was today to finally get the first day over with.
Sad to be ending a chapter of my life which I've loved. The memories are unforgettable and precious.
I know I'll do good. I know I'll be fine.
Just freaking out a bit.
Now back to quilting/food/history Susan...
I'm looking forward to Saturday as I'll be attending the Road to California Quilt Show with my friend Zina. I should have photos and a recap here on Sunday. Quilty goodness will be good for my soul. Yay!
Enjoy your Friday,